Confusion

I'm looking after my friends' cats, and I was in their wild garden with their two beautiful burmese, then I was wandering home and came across the grave yard. I paused for a moment, but I went in and sat listening to some Joni Mitchell. I shed a tear, but I just don't know what to do? One moment I'm carrying on, and just getting over it, the next, I can't breathe and I cry until my eyes sting. I'm living in dream world at the moment